It's mentally hard. There are times when you're set back again, and you don't know what to do.
— Jack Rodwell
I've been at Man City and won the league. I've played for England. I've had success and good times - just not enough for someone of my ability.
There's been a lot come through at Everton: Wayne Rooney, obviously, and lately, Victor Anichebe has made it, James Vaughan, and the likes of myself.
I've played all over, to be honest. Centre-half, defensive midfield, attacking midfield.
To be honest, from England Under-16s, through the 17s and 18s, really all the way through my youth career, I played at centre-half. For some reason, when I made my debut at Everton, I just played in central midfield, and it went from there.
To play in the white shirt of England is an honour, and you give your all every time you step on the pitch.
There have been ups and downs over the years, but that's in the past, and now I'm just looking forward and focussed on the future ahead.
The player I look up to is Rio Ferdinand. I have always played at the back, and I've always tried to base my game on his.
I vaguely remember the 1998 World Cup. Michael Owen scored; I remember watching that.
Eventually, I think I'll probably end up at centre-half. By the time I get to 28 or 29, I imagine I'll be a defender.
You always want to test yourself at a high level, and I would be proud to represent Great Britain.
When you're out for a week here and there, it sets you back, and you're out of the team.
Blackburn is a club which has won the Premier League before, and it doesn't get bigger or better than that.
I just want to do the best I can, which means hopefully play for the full England side one day and carry on playing well for Everton.
I have been playing box-to-box more for Everton as a two, so I have felt comfortable in that position, but anywhere across the midfield I can play.
I've played at centre-half plenty of times before.
I'm a great believer in my ability, but I've not had the chance to prove it.
